I'm seriously gonna cry when he leaves...

KIM HEECHUL. I can't help but to feel down because you're leaving to serve the army. This is one of the days when I keep on asking why men should leave...especially idols like you. But since you said it, I understand. At first, I was really depressed when Leeteuk kept giving hints of him entering the entry but I can't believe you'll go first! >.<

Heechul : This was my last stage before the army. It feels great to have been given such a special award before my leave. I’m always thankful to Jungsoo (Leeteuk) as well as the other members. Thank you to all the staff of ‘Inkigayo’ who gave us so much of their time, and I’m especially thankful to all the managers who put up with my bad temper. I’m not very good at expressing myself, so I’ll just leave it here. I’ll come back safely, stay healthy! . Hope u can understand

Today's Winner: Super Junior!

I clapped my hands non-stop when I heard their name. Although I was expecting 2ne1 to own the award, I wasn't in doubt that SuJu could win it.

But when Leeteuk suddenly burst into tears, I was taken aback... How could he cry so preciously...? Just because of his co-member, he shed not just a single tear but a drop after another.

It was definitely hard for him as a leader, especially when Heechul is almost as the same age as him. Of course, as the older ones, they're the guys who match in a lot of ways.

Watching the performance was already hard for me. Has anyone seen Kyuhyun wipe his tears and at the end, there's a line down his right eye indicating a tear just fell? And did anyone feel the sad atmosphere? And the painful part in their performance, is when you could see how Kim Heechul, the guy who doesn't care if he dances badly or not dance at all, doing everything he can to show his effort in performing for the last time?

He was smiling...

Fanchant: Saranghaeyo KIM HEE CHUL! Uyubitkkal KIM HEE CHUL!

I don't know if Heenim is just acting tough because he didn't cry. But he was also the one comforting everyone, tapping their shoulders and hugging them, telling them that everything will be fine.

How could he be so... I don't even know what to react. He'll be out of sight for 2 years..! Two freaking years without Super Junior's Kim Heechul! I don't know if it's just because he's my bias, but seriously, I can't even imagine those two years without him.


You're my bias...and certainly, once you leave, I don't think I can face Super Junior like before. You're the main reason why I take effort in watching SJ's performances even though I'm SHINee biased. You're the reason why I buy albums, go to concerts and watch variety shows.

But I guess now...I'm not in the place to stop you. I just wish that you'll be SAFE in there...Happy as well, because you know, ELFS especially Petals, will always be here for you. We will support you no matter what.

We will surely miss you! But we will look forward to a new Kim Heechul who never fails to surprise us.

Sometimes, I mean, Most of the Times, Boys are Insensitive... *sighs*

The title says it! Boys are freakin' insensitive! Whyyyyy...!


In my case, 'he' always does something that makes me...blush(?) or get giddy inside...but he's not aware of it!


1. One rainy afternoon, I didn't bring my umbrella (what a bad timing since I always have it in my bag but at that day, I took it off). I was walking on the streets with only my bare hands to cover the top of my head...until he yelled at me to come over (yeah, he's pretty rude sometimes). He told me I'm so stupid to walk in the rain as if I'm willing to get sick (what the hell). And so he dragged me with him and shared his umbrella.

2. I always have fun during English class. I wouldn't last a day without laughing my heart out because of some interesting topics during the discussion. Well, one of the main reasons too why I laugh is because of my funny and weird classmate. One time, the insensitive guy asked me to sit beside him. His reason is because both of us have fun (of course, pertaining to our weird classmate). But the next meeting, I didn't sit beside him...and he was kind of disappointed so for the proceeding classes, he would grab my bag (while on my back) and drag me along with him so I would be able to sit beside him.

3. It's my habit to buy cookies before I go home. It's because I eat them while on my way. One afternoon, after class, I bought some (as usual) and he saw me and did the same (because I told him they taste good). And for the next days, he's the one paying for me (^___^).

4. Thinking he might probably notice I had a slight crush on him, I faked out an info telling my friends I ran into my old friend, who was my crush back then. I kept on smiling the whole day, telling myself I'm inspired to study...only to see him not caring about my giddiness. I mean, he always tells me to 'Shut up, your voice is too loud' or 'in your dreams' kind of statements, but no! He just ignored me the whole day. Ugh.


Anyway, go on being insensitive!

My Ultimate Goal: My KPOP Room!

I was definitely inspired to decorate my own KPOP room when I came across this post in BBupdates. I was like, 'seriously?!! O.o What a hardcore VIP she is!'. How I wish I have the same room! But unlike her, I want not just to focus on one group. Actually, I'm a Shawol and a VIP, but I also other groups' albums so I can't just put up a Shawol room or a VIP room (like hers) and keep the remaining albums I have (like IU's, 2AM's, etc.) so I decided on a KPOP room. Well, good luck to me! :)

[picture taken from "The Ultimate VIP Room" @ vip.bigbangupdates.com]